i have never been the least bit disturbed about being alone on valentine's day. there have been a few valentine's days with boyfriends, but they existed back in grade school/high school. i would rather give someone a list of aspects in my life that i love. or the fact that i love my family and friends and my special little kitty d.c.
the candy, the cards, the exploitation of this word we use [love] actually annoy me. why is there so much emphasis on this one day?? shouldn't it be everyday?? i guess i can't complain because my valentine is going to be the reading i have to do for my Gender and Latino/a Migration course [ironically, the book is called 'courtship after marriage'] and a glass of andre. this makes me completely content to be honest.
i accidentally left my phone charger at my friend's last weekend and she has yet to mail it to me. the feelings of isolation are beyond insane. mostly, it's because i haven't been able to talk to my mom enough. the feelings of loneliness are a result of not being able to talk to her and while i wonder what that means about me, i really and truly am so happy that she is there for me. i wish i didn't fight with my parents so much in high school. but i am overjoyed about the splendid relationship i have with my mom right now.
lastly, i have to say that i am happy to be enjoying my life with myself right now. i find a lot of pleasure in the independence i feel. like the fact that i ate at a mexican restaurant on campus by myself the other day. i was nervous about it, i even felt slightly strange. but, i had no one to go with me and i had to write a review for my vegan column. so, i braved it alone. and it was fine. i was fine. and i enjoy myself. i get along with myself and am not bored ever anymore. it's interesting to finally be at this place in my life. in fact, i'm worried i might have gotten too comfortable.
there's just something so liberating in knowing you can do something by yourself. and it's taken me so long to get here.
sweeter dreams.
k
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Hi! I came across your blog today and *loved* it! I feel like I relate to some of the things you're writing about and love reading your posts :)
I think we all look back at the past and wish we had done things differently, but at the same time, maybe if what happened didn't happen then we could be totally different people today.
Hey.. I really like your blog. :) Keep up the good work.
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Hi there Kimberly. I'm sure that many women (and men) can relate to your sentiments in this post.
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