we did it when we were young

another new month!

i am constantly reminding myself to be beyond grateful for how everything is right now. everything is as it should be. i am struggling along in my advanced statistics course. i am learning again how to be flexible--to adapt to the way it is. i am hopeful about the way the next few years will unfold even if it is not exactly what i planned. there is beauty in flexibility. there is grace in the way that one adapts and reconstructs when it does not go as planned.

i have found a boisterous and rowdy group of students to get my master's degree with and i a forever grateful for their company, incessant laughter, and support. it's incredible that i entered this program, at this time, with these people. it will be something i will never be able to adequately explain, but it will be imprinted on my heart for eternity. we have accepted each other in the most remarkable ways and we've become this family. we have quirks and mannerisms that are odd, yet that is what we appreciate about one another. community at its finest--love in its simplest form.

the snow is falling once more and even though i am anxious for spring and the shining sun, i am content w. what is. there is this feeling in me that is so profound. it is a feeling that no matter what happens, it will somehow end up being okay. i will manage to adapt. i feel capable.

that being said, i am trying to remember to appreciate what is. i am trying not to look back on my youth with the sad realization that i will never get it back. one day, i will be thinking about how i cannot get back this time in my life. so, i intend to enjoy it. i hope you are too.

our paths are never simple or uncomplicated. we can never truly understand why someone acts the way they do. we can never understand each little thought, action, or feeling that someone has. we can never understand how that limits and has the potential to change life forever. i try not to think too hard about the alternatives to the choices i've made or thought i've made. i try to accept them and learn from them. there is little use dwelling on what cannot be mended.

i look forward to another new month. i look forward, always forward.

sweeter dreams.
k