message read on the bathroom stall: i don't feel at all like i thought

the end of the semester is here! as in right now, this week. i am ridiculously anxious by the manner in which it progressed. are we really finished with this semester in three days?? i can't handle it. luckily, i made some progress this weekend on two of my papers. now, i just have to worry about my 410 take-home final and the other three in class finals (the worst being first!).

i suppose my illness never left me and so i have been coughing too too much. it's driving me crazy! i want summer, i need a job, and i want to be well again. it could not have picked a worse time of year to return in full force.

we went to a block party on saturday over in urbana. it was delightful even when the cops came because of the music...30 noise complaints and it was a saturday evening...seems a little excessive. it was fun though. good people. i sat on the quad at 3AM this morning (despite my sickness) and it was magnificent. There was a tent set up (i had never thought of camping on the quad) and the birds were chirping. it was chilly, but it was definitely a really great 'college' experience. [great idea: compliments of gavin :)]

it looks a lot different at night...beautiful though

brendan and i had basil thai today and it was absolutely delicious. i think i am in love with the one on green street. but anyway, we had basil thai && coldstone which made for a yummy food day.

this week is going to be stressful. i need to get well. i need need need a job. i am going crazy here. but i'm ready for summer...job or not.

for some reason my mind has taken itself into thought overload and i can't seem to concentrate on anything besides the billions of tiny thought fragments running through my head. i'm at a crossroads...

i hope this weather warms up...i'm getting tired of its constant fluctuation.

also, i just started thinking about everything that has occurred in my life that has led me to the point where i am at right now. i was just thinking about all the people i have known and all i have yet to meet. and i realize i cannot fathom how much each person has contributed to my life, large or small, and i just wonder how i became so fascinated with the structure and significance of human relationships. i am fascinated by them but i am scared to death of them. each and every type of relationship holds so much power...so much potential impact waiting to burst open and flood into your life. think about it.

sweeter dreams.
k