if the guilt doesn't kill you, this song just might

how did i get stuck with the 8am final on a saturday morning?? figures, i do not get to partake in hanako's happy birthday margarita poon pit party. (long inside joke)

is it terrible that i haven't been able to concentrate on studying as much as i should have?? i'm not as worried as i probably should be because i feel like i really grasped the concepts discussed in lecture and i will be able to relate the readings to them just fine. the professor is one of those speakers that really knows how to explain what she's talking about. not only that, but i actually am terribly interested in the topics she discusses so that might help.

the weather today was awkward to say the least. it started off chilly and overcast with rain in the morning. after my atmosphere final (around 2:30) it was sunny and proceeded to warm up. then later in the evening the rain and overcast skies were back. i just do not understand it. i enjoyed it though. i liked the way the air felt earlier when it was about to rain. it reminded me of all the smells and feelings of spring and summers past.

i can't decide how i feel about not going home for the summer. i mean, i think i'll be really happy staying down here. and i'm sure i'll get so much more reading done. but i'm going to miss my mom and the times we spend just hanging out during the summer days. i wonder if i'll miss this when i'm older and i do not actually have the chance to be home with her. and i wonder if maybe i should just go home and stay home. but then i think of last summer and how the bad times were far more than the good and i wonder why i would ever want to spend 3 more months voluntarily in poplar grove.

end of the year confusion?? is that you??

multiple issues are stressing me out at the moment. but! at least i am feeling infintely better than earlier this week. the cough has just about subsided!

okay. i'd say it's about time for sleep. 8AM will come too soon for my liking. let's get this over with puh-lease.

sweeter dreams.
k